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One Step Closer

Hey everyone! I've got some freaken awesome good news!

I am once step closer to to going to beautiful Hong Kong for my final field experience. WOO! I'm really excited about this. I just have to wow the two interviewers and then I'll be on my way! I want this, I deserve this. I'm ready for this. I'm ready to start (or continue, after Italy) my life as an international ESL teacher. I WILL do this and I WILL be awesome and I WILL succeed. And the best part? I'm going and grabbing life by the horns. I'm making things happen. I'm not waiting to something to just fall into my lap. Look at that picture. Isn't it beautiful? I belong there, I mean look at the skyscrapers: some of them are pink! I'm sad, though, because I've found out that some deserving people didn't even get an interview. I'm sorry that I won't have the opportunity to be in Hong Kong with her. She and I weren't in direct competition for a spot, so, for me, there's no upside to her not getting an interview.

Something else I'd like to mention is this video from 2009's World of Science Festival. In it, Bobby McFerrin demonstrates the power of the pentatonic scale. It's just incredible that people who don't really know each other and don't know what will happen next can (correctly) assume what note will be next based on the three note set up McFerrin gives them. It still gives me chills, even though I've watched it many time.

Humans are fascinating, aren't they?

Creativity and Evil Genius (Journal 2)

This past week, I read an interesting article about studying creativity. David Henry Feldman writes about how the study of creativity is often limited to one dimension developed by those deemed creative. He focuses on a study done by Howard Gardner (1983/1993) who “examined the lives and works of seven creative individuals in seven different fields” (Feldman 172). Keeping with the number seven, Feldman uses Gardner’s study to look at the seven dimensions of creativity. These dimensions are as follow:
1. Cognitive process
2. Social/emotional process
3. Family aspects: growing up and current
4. Education and preparation: formal and informal
5. Characteristics of the domain and field
6. Social/cultural contextual aspects
7. Historical forces, events, trends (Feldman 171-172).
This article looks at the relationship between these seven dimensions and seven examples of geniuses in their seven different fields (Albert Einstein – physics, Pablo Picasso – painting, Igor Stravinsky – music, T. S. Elliot – literacy, Martha Graham – dance, Mohandas Gandhi – politics). I will be using the three of the seven dimensions to explain the creativity (or lack thereof) for one fictional literary character and one real person in their respective fields. These characters and their respective fields are:
a) Dexter Morgan (from the Dexter books by Jeff Lindsay) – serial killing
b) ME (from real life) – literacy
I will apply Gardner’s and Feldman’s research to these modern examples to see if they benefit from the three of the seven dimensions of creativity.
Cognitive
While not all of Gardner’s examples were child prodigies, Dexter and I exhibited both interest and talent in our respective fields as children. According to Lindsay’s books, Dexter started killing animals at a relatively young age, and, according to my mother, I started inventing imaginative stories and scenarios for my dolls when I was about six years old. Feldman’s article also suggests that a ten year period needed to move from amateur to expert in any given field. Dexter kills his first victim at the age of 18 (if Dexter was born in 1970, as is revealed in the books, this would make his first kill in 1988) and by the time the second book, Dearly Devoted Dexter in 2005, his body count is up to 41, 17 years later. From 1988 to 1993, he perfects his style of killing to include dismembering and disposing of the body parts more effectively. We can theorize that this is part of the mastery needed to be successful in his field, something he develops at the half way point of this ten year mastery scale.
I, on the other hand, have yet to move past the amateur stage in my pursuit for literary success. Unlike Dexter, I have developed asynchrony with my preferred field. I believe that writing and storytelling can be done in new and innovative way: I just haven’t figured it out yet. Dexter seems to be content with the domain of serial killing as it is, his asynchrony lies more with justice: he is unhappy with how many criminals are allowed to walk free and escape prosecution due to administrative errors.
Social/emotional
The most notable characteristic that defines Dexter is that he does not have the ability to feel, which prevents him from forming strong emotional bonds with others. Much like Gardner’s creative geniuses, Dexter benefits from intense relationships with a select few. In the first book, Dexter’s relationship with Rita (his girlfriend at the time) intensifies as he hunts his next victim. The intense relationship keeps his mind sharp and lets him focus on his craft. Once the hunt for his latest victim ends, his relationship with Rita cools off and he simply goes through the motions once more as a “pretend” human.
I also benefit from short bursts of intensity in my relationships, romantic or otherwise. These relationships give me inspiration for my writing, which is somewhat different then their function described in the Feldman article. There, the relationships are described as supportive: for both Dexter and I it is the intensity that inspires us.
Family
This section of Feldman’s article mentions that early childhood trauma can attribute to later creative success in a specific domain. Dexter suffered what can only be described severe trauma. At the age of three, Dexter and his brother witnessed the gruesome dismemberment of his mother and two other victims. He and his brother, Brian, were left in the shipping container where the murder occurred, with the victims, in two inches of blood before they were found and Dexter was adopted by his new family. This trauma has been directly linked to his serial killer, psychopathic nature.
Although I do not believe my early childhood incident is worthy of the term trauma, a chunk of ceiling (plaster) fell on me when I was six years old. While I attribute that event to my weird and eclectic personality, I do not believe that it would dictate my creative success in the literary field.
As we can see, there are similarities between different kinds of creative success in many different fields. Does this mean that these three (ultimately the seven that Feldman focuses on) dimensions are the only dimensions that define creative success? That is difficult to put in absolute terms. Although I share similarities with fictional serial killer Dexter Morgan, I do not believe that I can be as creatively successful he or any of the other aforementioned geniuses. In Dexter’s case, Raymond S. Nickerson explains that “creativity, ... can serve either good or bad ends and ... attempting to enhance creativity in a value-free way is a bit like teaching a child how to aim and fire a gun without providing guidance regarding what, and what not, to shot at” (Nickerson 397). This is why Dexter is seen as the hero in his books: his adoptive father nurtured his creativity and intelligence and guided him to use his skill to catch the “bad guys” who have gotten away with their crimes, in the eyes of the law.

My goals

My (short term) goals are as follows:

1. I want my room to be perfectly clean.
2. I want to lose enough weight that I feel comfortable in a bikini.
3. I want to write (and publish) a book.
4. I want to go to Hong Kong to do my final field experience.

Let's look at these one by one, starting with... well... the first one.

1. I want my room to be perfectly clean.
Okay, for my room to be perfectly clean, I have to clean it, right? Well, I'm trying. I really am. I'm up to what, part six of my room cleaning saga? This is a goal I can control, and I am controlling it. I'm setting some time aside as often as possible to clean as much as I can. As I clean, instead of just moving things from one side of the room to the other, I'm actually packing it in boxes and reusable bags. This way, I can easily stack, store, and (later) find my books and DVDs (which seem to be the stuff of which I have too much). This way, everything has it's place and it's place isn't randomly strewn around my room. This is a goal that I am in control of. I can (and will) achieve.

2. I want to lose enough weight that I feel comfortable in a bikini.
Ahh, this old thing. Yep, the weight thing. So, I'm fat. I'm not delusional about this, it's a fact and I'm okay with it. Well.. not really, if I want to lose weight, right? This is a health thing, not a vanity thing. I'm out of breath all this time, my knees hurt, my heart beats so freaken quickly... I'm too young to have all these problems. Also, I have an awesome tattoo that NO ONE SEES because I'm too ashamed of my fat belly to show it off. So I'm eating better, not dieting. Dieting is a deprivation of certain foods. I'm not ready to (nor do I think I have to) cut out whole items from my daily menus. Instead, I'm eating less bad stuff and more good stuff and making better choices in my day to day life. I'm also exercising more. I'm not going to the gym because a) I'm poor and b) I don't think I need to go to the gym right now. Gyms are great for those with time and money and I have neither at the moment. We have an elliptical at home and if I use it more and walk the dog more, then I think that'll be enough for now! This is a goal that I am in control of. I can (and will) achieve.

3. I want to write (and publish) a book.
I think this may be the easiest of the goals to accomplish. Now a days, anyone can write and then self publish a book. The thing is, I don't want to be a self-published author. I want to be a real author. A good author. I want to write something that people who are not my family and friends will buy, read, and love. My mom says all I need to do is get an idea and run with it, but that's a lot easier said than done. I mean, if it were easy, I'd have already done it. My mother raised a good point by asking my what kind of book I want to write. Well, I have no idea. Whatsoever. Not a clue. But, if I persevere, I might actually succeed. This is a goal that I am in (somewhat) control of. I can achieve it, if I try.

4. I want to go to Hong Kong to do my final field experience.
Seriously, this is a possibility. It would be a DREAM COME TRUE in more ways than one. I'd be teaching in Asia. This could open up a whole new bunch of possibilities: I'd have my foot in the door of a teaching job in Asia. Also, I'd be going to Asia on my school's dime, which really isn't that terrible of thing, is it? Hong Kong is a beautiful city. I really want to be chosen for this... That's right. Chosen. This is NOT a goal that I am in control of. I've written my letter of intent and all I can do is hope that it gets me an interview. After that, I can just pray that I've impressed them enough to pick me as one of the lucky 8 people from TESL to go. I hope I can achieve it.

Creativity

This is my first "Journal" for my a class I'm taking called Creativity and its Cultivation.

Creativity... what is it? Does everyone have it? Does everyone want it? Is it really all that useful? The answer to all those questions is “yes.” Well, it’s not the answer to the first question, obviously, but that’s not the point. Or is it?
Okay, so what is creativity? Dictionary.com has a pretty good definition:

Creativity (noun)
1. The state or quality of being creative.
2. The ability to transcend traditional ideas, rules, patterns, relationships, or the like, and to create meaningful new ideas, forms, methods, interpretations, etc.; originality, progressiveness, or imagination: the need for creativity in modern industry; creativity in the performing arts.
3. The process by which one utilizes creative ability: Extensive reading stimulated his creativity.

I like the second definition best, it’s not very creative of them to use the word to be defined in its definition, is it... but I digress.

Creativity is then ability to “transcend traditional ideas,” to go beyond what is customary, break convention and be brilliant. What constitutes as brilliant may be different for everyone, but it is definitely the goal, the desired end result, the treasure at the end of creativity trail.

Now, does everyone one have creativity? And if they don’t, are they capable of attaining it? I think: YES! Everyone one has some form of creativity or another. Twyla Tharp, a choreographer, offers advice to about creativity and the creative process in an article written by the Harvard Business Review in 2008. Yup, a CHOREOGRAPHER had an article written about in a BUSINESS magazine. Now, would you associate creativity more with choreography or with business? Yeah, I’d usually pick business to. NOT! I’d totally pick dance! Typical creativity (although I hate anything that is always associated with something typical) is associated with capital-a-Art, whether it be dance, paint, music, etc. I agree with Tharp, or the editors of Harvard Business Review or whoever is responsible for having the Tharp article in the magazine. The art of dance and the art of business are more similar than people think. They both utilize immense creativity: they just do it differently. Whether you are a business person, a mathematician, a writer, a chemist or a dancer, you need creativity to get you through the times you get “stuck” in your work. All those science-y type people need MASSIVE creativity to create new formulas, work through old ones and make the world a better, safer, more science-y place. Those who are in the capital-a-Art fields have the stigma of being dubbed creative whether they are successful or not. This is also why I think everyone WANTS some sort of creativity (jeeze, how many more times can I shove the word “creativity” in this? Let’s see!). Everyone wants to be successful and, in my books, the two are synonymous.

So I took this CREAX Creativity-Self Assessment test thing and I found that my “creativity index” is 69.22 whereas the typical creativity index is 62.47. I have no idea what to make of this. The number seems low, in my opinion, even if it’s above the typical number. Does that mean that I’m not that creative? I’m super creative? I’m barely above average? I wish the website provided a better explanation for the result, it only explains the categories it includes in its assessment. I have no idea what it means and if I did, I don’t think I’d put much stock in it. I really dislike those types of tests and I don’t think something like creativity can be tested for or measured.

Do you want to take the test? Take it HERE and let me know your results.

Let's Face It. English Is a Stupid Language

I just wanted to share a poem about the English language:

Let's Face It. English Is a Stupid Language

There is no egg in the eggplant,
No ham in the hamburger
And neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.
English muffins were not invented in England,
French fries were not invented in France.

We sometimes take English for granted, but if we examine its paradoxes we find that:
Quicksand takes you down slowly,
Boxing rings are square,
And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

If writers write, how come fingers don't fing?
If the plural of tooth is teeth,
Shouldn't the plural of phone booth be phone beeth?
If the teacher taught,
Why hasn't the preacher praught?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables,
What the heck does a humanitarian eat?
Why do people recite at a play,
Yet play at a recital?
Park on driveways and
Drive on parkways?
How can the weather be as hot as hell on one day
And as cold as hell on another?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language where a house can burn up as it burns down,
And in which you fill in a form
By filling it out
And a bell is only heard once it goes!

English was invented by people, not computers,
And it reflects the creativity of the human race
(Which of course isn't a race at all.)

That is why:
When the stars are out they are visible,
But when the lights are out they are invisible.
And why it is that when I wind up my watch
It starts,
But when I wind up this poem
It ends.

http://www.c4vct.com/kym/humor/esl.htm